Conformity is a Tragedy

Dying to scream, so I hide and sing
A disillusioned voyeur studying the sane

God keeps whispering in the devils ear
"HALLELUJAH! Things are getting weird!"

Nakedly perverted, possessive, and free
I wanna run away, but I never wanna leave

I got an axe to grind, and mouth to match
You better hear me out-don't let me crash

I'm BLACK, I'm WHITE, I'm the human race
Call me "EVE"-how's the apple taste?

In a perfect world I'd find my place
Try to change me? What a fucked up waste.

My body's cold
The whispers chill me
Expose myself
AM I STILL PRETTY?
ARE YOU SO FLAWLESS
OR IS IT GUTLESS
THAT YOU CAN'T ACCEPT ME??????

Will you still love me tomorrow
when you find out who I am today?

Will you know my name tomorrow
when you hear the things I have to say?

it’s one o’clockand all is well

yes it is-it most surely is

Mulan is Not A Damn Princess

Why isn't Mulan a Princess? All the other disney movies end with the female lead as a Princess. But Mulan doesn't Mulan ends with her saivng China, and going back to her farm,no castle, and dating the dead generals son, not a prince.
There's Princess Aurora, Princess Jasmin, Princess Cindrella, Princess Belle, and Princess Ariel and Princess Snow White. But there is no Princess Mulan. Mulan is not a damn Princess. Maybe it was the whole crossdressing thing, but Disney did not make her a Princess. None of these other brawds save entire county-yet they still got Princess status. Mulan got.....
ahr. I'm shutting up now. You people don't care. Nor should you. It's a stupid rant. But Trins birthday is les than two weeks away and she loves Princesses but her favorite disney movie just so happens to be Mulan and it irks me that she can't be both Mulan and a princess at the same time.

Petition

Please, if you know our story and care at all-sign this petition so that, maybe, someday-fathers get a fair shake. So that "visitation" becomes "parenting time". So that the default isn't one weekend every two weeks-but a schedule that keeps the child close to both parents and able to form a close bond with both of them. So that the hundreds of thousands of dollars spent on child support can be accounted for and actually support the children, not the mothers extravagant spending habits or new boyfriend. So that kids from the "second family", like MY KIDS, are not looked at as SECOND PLACE and get whatevers leftover after the first mom gets their share. Sign this petition if you believe all kids have the right to be supported, and it shouldm't be first come first serve. Sign this petition if you've ever read one of my blogs and been moved. And then pass it on. Cuz 1000 signatures isn't enough. We need millions to change the system put in place by militant, man-hating feminists so many years ago. We need millions to makke the politicians not afraid. This is not "anti" anything. Its PRO-family.

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/dc-rally-2007

or click here

FAMILY PRESERVATION DAY

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Welcome to the Home Site of the DCRally2007 AUGUST 18-19, 2007 "Family Preservation Day" ..>..> We are individuals , families, organizations, businesses and churches united nationwide. We represent varied cultures, religions and ethnicities. We are parents, mothers and fathers. We are children. We are grandparents, aunts and uncles. We are veterans. We are lay people. We are professionals. We are America. We meet in Washington DC , to peacefully exercise our first amendment right to assemble and to respectfully petition our government for a redress of grievances. Our grievances relate to governmental interference with and the destruction of our nation's family structure. DCRally2007 will take place at the historic site of the Lincoln Memorial in Washington DC. DCRally2007 commemorates the 44th anniversary of the Civil Rights Movement. DCRally2007 is the extension of the Civil Rights Movement. DCRally2007 addresses the state's failure to recognize and protect our Fundamental Rights. It's time for our Federal Congress to recognize and protect our Fundamental Rights. DCRally2007 is coming to Washington DC; because the states condone and allow the abduction of children from their homes and the placing of children into the adoption market. The states have opened this door and allow illegal step-parent adoptions without the knowledge and/or consent of fit and loving parents. This outrage is breaking the hearts of good, fit, loving parents and America's children. DCRally2007 is coming to Washington DC; because the states under the color of law utilize destructive and unnecessarily punitive methods for child support collection and refuse to adopt shared parenting legislation for fit and loving parents. Children are alienated from loving and fit parents. The net result is a squandering of precious federal and state tax revenue, hostile and dysfunctional men and women who have contempt for the system and children who exhibit every social ill imaginable. DCRally2007 is coming to Washington DC; because the states in fact, profit financially from the child support collection procedures they implement. Hence, states have an incentive to maintain an adversarial environment and a 'winner take all' agenda whereby one party is empowered and one party is disenfranchised and forced to pay into the state's collection mechanism. The states are manufacturing 'dead beats' and are turning fit and loving parents into felons often times making it impossible to gain meaningful employment. DCRally2007 is coming to Washington DC; because the states while ignoring Fundamental Rights are wrongfully affecting corporate America and costing America untold billions of dollars annually in lost productivity. Anxiety, depression, anger, pre-occupation, physical illness, absenteeism, and much more are the result of the policies and procedures utilized by the states and the result is dysfunctional citizens, less product and higher prices. DCRally2007 is coming to Washington DC; because the states are destroying families and relationships and allowing their respective state agencies to medicate our children senselessly without regard for long-term effects and without the permission of fit and loving parents. DCRally2007 is coming to Washington DC; because the states have usurped the parental responsibility to discipline children and inculcate moral values. The result is parents are wrongfully punished. Children are drugged, running out of control and becoming self-destructive. Our society as a whole is suffering. DCRally2007 is coming to Washington DC; because when paternity fraud takes place, the states refuse to recognize it as fraud, continue to collect child support from parents with no biological connection to a child and further refuse to spend the necessary time and resources to locate the biological parent.

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DCRally2007 is coming to Washington DC; because the states treat America's veterans with disrespect and contempt in matters relating to familial issues. Veterans are the backbone of America; however the states continuously ignore with calloused indifference the fundamental rights of veterans and their families. The present environment for the American family and all those individuals within is beyond dismal. It is a deep abyss. The states of this nation ignore and trample upon Fundamental Rights with impunity. Yet, Fundamental Rights are God given and Fundamental Rights are recognized by the United States Supreme Court and are guaranteed by the United States Constitution. Accordingly,

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AMERICAN CITIZENS OF ALL RACES, COLORS AND CREEDS ARE COMING TOGETHER FOR THE FIRST ANNUAL "FAMILY PRESERVATION DAY"

wow. am i actually asking for advice?

Ok, maybe not. Maybe I'm just polling for opinions, trying to get a consensus and what the hell I'm perceiving.
So last night V finds out the kids are at his moms house. Not because she called to tell him, but because she was calling about something else and he was gonna come by so I'm pretty sure she felt compelled to mention it before he walked in to her house and saw his kids.
(Real quick-I just think it bears mentioning that they had just spent almost two weeks with us and their birth mom had not seen them the ENTIRE time and she picks em up Monday afternoon and by Wednesday evening their with someone else, but anywho....)
So yeah. It's been pretty much a punch in the gut for him. He totally feels betrayed. He's asked her so many times to call him before she agrees to watch them for her. Just let him know-b/c she has done to him before. Many times. She even showed up with the BM to report card pick-up. WTF is that? And we were THERE. Me and Van and Trin and Tre and HIS MOTHER is riding with the ENEMY????? Ummmm..... excuse me lady-she tried to have your son thrown in jail! Helllllloooooo!!!!!!??????? Anyone home??????
And his mom claims she's tryna "stay neutral" so she gets to see the girls. But wtf-ever. We're in court fighting over HIM getting to see HIS kids and all you're concerned about is yourself? This "neutrality" is bullshit cuz the only one she's helping in the bm. She's blowing up her head making her feel right for one. And if she can't get a sitter-you're giving her an option other than over here where the kids belong with their family!
I don't think she should have ever tried to be neutral. That's her son. Her only child. And she should have his back and be in his corner till the end. Not be conspiring, making secret phones calls to the bitch(on the phone I gave her, btw)behind her sons back.
I think it's wrong. And I know it's partially b/c they BOTH hate my guts-but that's no excuse. She needs to stop playing around and get in vans corner.



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is.............................................................................. as intolerant and judgemental as I am.....I understand what motivates you.

guess. the fuck. what.

tonight is my last night. heeeeeelllllz to the mickeyfickin YEAH.
then i'll be off. for a whole week. uninterupted. yeas. omg. i'm gonna do stuff with you guys. we're gonna go out and DO STUFF.
and my babies don't go back to the lair of the greasys for like another week. so awesome. it is good. o yes.
it is good.

Talking Crap

Dude, seriously. If you're gonna talk crap-do it where I can see it/hear it/read it....otherwise-wtf is the point?

When I talk crap-I want you to know that I am and I want you to know it's about YOU. I don't try and hide it (and on the rare occasion that I do-I'm on some "other" type shit)I want you to know. Seriously. I want all my people-everyone in my life to know exactly how I feel about them. I don't lie. I don't front. If in fact it does leave my mouth-I mean it.

This is not just for people I hate and have no tolerance or respect for-it's everybody. And don't think just cuz I have/am/are/will talk shit about you-that I don't like you. Thats just not true. Everybody has not so desireable qualities. I put myself as the first bitch on that list. I have some big ASS flaws. Just like you. I know it. Do you? What do you think your flaws are? Really? Ok, now do u wanna know the truth-cuz I'll tell you. For real tho, I take the good with the bad. I know nobodys perfect. I accept that. And I embrace even the most flawed person with compassion, understanding and forgiveness. But I will STILL talk shit. Maybe it doesn't make sense to some. But it does me just fine. It's like mmmmmmmm. God. Sooo trying to think of some kind of fitting metaphor. Like when my babe poots. The shit STINKS. omg. sometimes i wanna hurl. And i talk MAD shit. like i am right now(and he's probly gonna be mad that i used this example-but sorry babe-i love you-stanky ass)But I accept the fact that his poots WILL stink. And that he WILL poot when I'm sitting right next to him. Those are acceptable flaws. There, of course, are unnacceptable flaws and those are the people I obviously cannot be friends with. My forgiving nature allows me to recognize when a flaw is remedied and move past that. But if you don't wanna change, fuck it then.

But anyway. I had a point. Kinda.

If you're gonna talk crap about me-at least let me be ABLE find out. Don't hide it. I wanna know. I wanna know what YOU think is wrong with me. I seriously doubt I'd change it but what the hell-I wanna know. Just cuz. And i understand you can't just walk up to my face and go "look, bitch-this is why i can't stand you...." thats confrontational. You can't be confrontational. When you come at people like that they lash out. They LOOK for shit to be wrong with you and things to attack you about. Thats counterproductive to my practice of acceptance. I wanna feel at ease. I want you to be easy too. I only talk crap in the faces of my friends that I KNOW can truly handle it without taking it as an attack and wanting to illogically strike back. That list is very short. But if you wanna know from my mouth what I think-buy my a bottle one night. I'll tell you. lol.
And tell ME. Stop hiding the shit.

what the fuck are you afraid of? lil ol me?