My page song is dedicated to E. Greasy bka E. Ribbet(the big E. Ribbet not the small one cuz trin has a crush on the small one and he hasn't done anything wrong) most of the descriptions in the song are dead on except for the whole "Personality" part b/c he doesn't have one to speak of really. It's mostly dirt and hard looks and drunkenness and wannabe hardass attitude and echoes of whatever sweet greasy, his partner in slime, has to say.
SO, here's to you-you ugly, stupid, foulmouthed jagoff.
I got 1 gilette left out-"you're SO ugly THE only person you could get to marry you is FOUR times your size and even more IGNORANT than you are!"
Seriously. I KNOW the deal. If you COULD get somebody that still had a waist (or neck....or less than 6 chins...)you WOULD but with a FACE like that-WHO WOULD HAVE YOU?????
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Monday, July 30, 2007
So Sad
OCEAN CITY, Md. - Investigators found three tiny bodies wrapped in plastic and hidden at the home of a woman who was charged last week with killing her newborn child, police said Monday.
None of the bodies was full-term, and only one of the four deaths was recent, said Ocean City Police spokesman Barry Neeb. "The rest could be a number of years old," he said.
Two of the bodies were found in a trunk in Christy Freeman's bedroom, and another was in a garbage bag found in a motor home parked in her driveway, police said. The remains were sent to the office of the chief medical examiner in Baltimore to determine the causes of their deaths, their ages and if all were related to Freeman.
Freeman, 37, came to authorities' attention on Thursday while she was hospitalized.
Medical personnel called police after determining she had been pregnant but could not account for the child.
After interviewing her, police searched Freeman's home and found the body of an infant wrapped in a blanket. Freeman was charged with murder and manslaughter under a 2005 law allowing charges for the death of a fetus that can live outside the womb.
Officers continued searching the home and property during the weekend and found the other tiny bodies, Neeb said.
Freeman lived in the second floor of the building with her boyfriend and her four other children, all of whom are safe, police said Monday. The building is less than a block off the Coastal Highway, the main north-south route in this resort town.
Freeman, owner of Classic Taxi in Ocean City, was to have a bond hearing later Monday.
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This is incredibly sad, man. It hurts my heart. Babies are precious, beautiful miracles. They are the only ones among us that are truly blameless. They haven't been here long enough to hurt anyone. They always look amazing, even when they first wake up. And they are totally dependant. They can't live without care. So many people in this county are trying desprately to concieve and failing. There is ALWAYS someone willing to take care of a baby. I have FOUR that drive me NUTS but I would still care for a baby in need. Why kill them? Where is the compassion? If you don't want them to live the terrible life that you're living-GIVE THE BABY AWAY. It's a tough world-but I could never think of killing a baby as a "mercy killing", Good God, why???
And I don't know if this has occured to anyone yet, but if this county were to go "Pro-Life" this would happen alot more. I personally, could never have an abortion. It's against my own beliefs regarding life. But I am absolutely PRO-CHOICE. If you force a woman to have a baby she REALLY doesn't want-things like this happen!!!! I'd rather a woman get rid of it early, when it's still just a cluster of cells, than to have it grow to full term and BE BORN and have a birthday. and been a seperate entity and then be killed by it's creator. What a shame. It really is a shame.
Thursday, July 26, 2007
dumbo
do ya'll remember dumbo? that's what my boy looks like. and i'm not speaking in terms of the elephant size and the trunk and definately not the ears. It's the eyes.I just watched a preview for the Dumbo DVD and I almost burst into tears cxuz it's my baby!!!! That incredibly gorgeous, innocent face and those loving, easy to read blue eyes-thats my tre'. You can see his soul in those eyes. You can see how GOOD and TRUE and HONEST and LOYAL and LOVING he will be in those eyes. omg. i LOVE him. I'm so lucky. I can't believe he's mine. My little dumbo.
Blonde
Yep, I'm blonde. Again. I just needed a change, I haven't been blonde since I was nineteen. And believe it or not, I would love to be nineteen forever. When I was nineteen I was pregnant with my first baby. I was never more poor. Never had less. Never had more uncomfortable, more unaccommodating surroundings, was never more hungry, never had any less than at that time. But I was so happy. So not stressed. And, I'll give you the fact that twenty-two is not old, at all. By any means, on any scale. But I've always been the youngest. Always been the baby. And I still get shit about my age. "you are so YOUNG." But I don't wany to be any older. I don't need it. For what? Maturity? I've been mature. I don't wish to be any more mature. I've been very "mature" for quite some time now. Wisdom? wtfever. With experience comes that wisdom and i've expierienced more than some more fortunate people will in a lifetime. These things bring me no comfort about being older. I wanted to be young and beautiful forever. I never even expected to live this long. I wanted a fast life and an open casket so people could remember me with this face and this body forever. But for me each year just brings another closed door. Less time to do the things I always dreamed of. I don't regret my life. Nobody can comfortably have regrets about their life, so I cannot regret mine. The choices I've made and those that have been made for me. The things I've allowed and settled for.......
anyway
nevermind all that
I'm blonde again
and I'm being carded for squares for the first time in years
OHELLYEAH
don't be hatin
anyway
nevermind all that
I'm blonde again
and I'm being carded for squares for the first time in years
OHELLYEAH
don't be hatin
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
ash-the mythbuster
I just saw this bulletin and decided to check the facts. Heres the bulletin:
Trivial Pursuit
Can you guess which of the following are true and which are false?
Answers are below.
1. Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.
2. Alfred Hitchcock didn't have a belly button.
3. A pack-a-day smoker will lose approximately 2 teeth every 10 years.
4. People do not get sick from cold weather; it's from being indoors a lot more.
5. When you sneeze, all bodily functions stop, even your heart!
6. Only 7 per cent of the population are lefties.
7. Forty people are sent to the hospital for dog bites every minute.
8. Babies are born without kneecaps. They don't appear until they are 2-6 years old.
9. The average person over 50 will have spent 5 years waiting in lines.
10. The toothbrush was invented in 1498.
11. The average housefly lives for one month.
12. 40,000 Americans are injured by toilet s each year.
13. A coat hanger is 44 inches long when straightened.
14. The average computer user blinks 7 times a minute.
15. Your feet are bigger in the afternoon than an y other time of day.
16. Most of us have eaten a spider in our sleep.
17. The REAL reason ostriches stick their head in the sand is to search for water.
18. The only two animals that can see behind themselves without turning their heads are the rabbit and the parrot.
19 John Travolta turn ed down the starring roles in "An Officer and a Gentleman" and "Tootsie."
20. Michael Jackson owns the rights to the South Carolina State Anthem.
21. In most television commercials advertising milk, a mixture of white paint and a little thinner is used in place of the milk.
22. Prince Charles and Prince William NEVER travel on the same airplane, just in case there is a c rash.
23. The first Harley Davidson motorcycle built in 1903 used a tomato can for a carburetor.
24. Most hospitals make money by selling the umbilical cords cut from women who give birth. They are used in vein transplant surgery.
25. Humphrey Bogart was related to Princess Diana. They were 7th cousins.
26. If coloring weren't added to Coca-Cola, it would be green.
They are all TRUE ... Now go back and think about 16
Now here are the facts:
1.
3. ok, sorry, my fellow smokers-this one is true.
4. Also, true.
5.FALSE. DUH.
7.From seven to ten percent of any population favors the left hand.
8.According to a 1998 article in The Journal of the American Medical Association (JAMA), during a three-year study, there were 914 new dog bite injuries requiring emergency room visits per day. With 1,440 minutes in a day, that's less than one bite per minute.
9.Kneecaps form about the fourth month of fetal life. However, they don't show up on x-ray very well because they're not ossified, or bony. At this point in life, the kneecaps are made of a cartilaginous material. The growth centers surrounding the kneecap form late in developmental life in utero and may not appear until just before or just after the infant is born. Bone growth may continue until the late teens or early twenties.
10. True. And say thank you to china.
11.the average lifespan of the house fly is 10 to 25 days. which is still too long, in my opinion. i HATE flys. *shudders*
12.i don't care. seriously.
13.true.
14.According to a study at Ohio State University in 2005, squinting at a computer screen can cut in half the number of times someone blinks each minute, from an average of 15 blinks per minute to 7.5.
15. Your feet do sweel slightly as you spend longer on them. This is just common sense. The force of gravity causes blood to pool in your lower extremities.
16. ugh. gross. and f*ing true!
17........i'm bored now-if you wanna know the answer to any of the rest just holla
Trivial Pursuit
Can you guess which of the following are true and which are false?
Answers are below.
1. Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.
2. Alfred Hitchcock didn't have a belly button.
3. A pack-a-day smoker will lose approximately 2 teeth every 10 years.
4. People do not get sick from cold weather; it's from being indoors a lot more.
5. When you sneeze, all bodily functions stop, even your heart!
6. Only 7 per cent of the population are lefties.
7. Forty people are sent to the hospital for dog bites every minute.
8. Babies are born without kneecaps. They don't appear until they are 2-6 years old.
9. The average person over 50 will have spent 5 years waiting in lines.
10. The toothbrush was invented in 1498.
11. The average housefly lives for one month.
12. 40,000 Americans are injured by toilet s each year.
13. A coat hanger is 44 inches long when straightened.
14. The average computer user blinks 7 times a minute.
15. Your feet are bigger in the afternoon than an y other time of day.
16. Most of us have eaten a spider in our sleep.
17. The REAL reason ostriches stick their head in the sand is to search for water.
18. The only two animals that can see behind themselves without turning their heads are the rabbit and the parrot.
19 John Travolta turn ed down the starring roles in "An Officer and a Gentleman" and "Tootsie."
20. Michael Jackson owns the rights to the South Carolina State Anthem.
21. In most television commercials advertising milk, a mixture of white paint and a little thinner is used in place of the milk.
22. Prince Charles and Prince William NEVER travel on the same airplane, just in case there is a c rash.
23. The first Harley Davidson motorcycle built in 1903 used a tomato can for a carburetor.
24. Most hospitals make money by selling the umbilical cords cut from women who give birth. They are used in vein transplant surgery.
25. Humphrey Bogart was related to Princess Diana. They were 7th cousins.
26. If coloring weren't added to Coca-Cola, it would be green.
They are all TRUE ... Now go back and think about 16
Now here are the facts:
1.
The Michigan Department of Agriculture used to say on its web site, "Apples are more efficient than caffeine in keeping people awake in the morning. The sugar in apples, and the act of chewing, works better than a cup of coffee for keeping people alert."
But in late November 2006 their Website Administrator contacted Rumor Mill to say they quit saying that.
And this was not to say apples contain caffeine. A page on the Ohio State University Extension Web site goes into more detail.
3. ok, sorry, my fellow smokers-this one is true.
4. Also, true.
5.FALSE. DUH.
6.A sneeze itself is really a very brief event, occurring in a shorter time then a heartbeat. Of course, there is the building up to the sneeze (the 'ah' of the 'ah-choo'), but the heart certainly does not stop beating because of this ah-ing. Check your pulse next time to prove this to yourself.
7.From seven to ten percent of any population favors the left hand.
8.According to a 1998 article in The Journal of the American Medical Association (JAMA), during a three-year study, there were 914 new dog bite injuries requiring emergency room visits per day. With 1,440 minutes in a day, that's less than one bite per minute.
9.Kneecaps form about the fourth month of fetal life. However, they don't show up on x-ray very well because they're not ossified, or bony. At this point in life, the kneecaps are made of a cartilaginous material. The growth centers surrounding the kneecap form late in developmental life in utero and may not appear until just before or just after the infant is born. Bone growth may continue until the late teens or early twenties.
10. True. And say thank you to china.
11.the average lifespan of the house fly is 10 to 25 days. which is still too long, in my opinion. i HATE flys. *shudders*
12.i don't care. seriously.
13.true.
14.According to a study at Ohio State University in 2005, squinting at a computer screen can cut in half the number of times someone blinks each minute, from an average of 15 blinks per minute to 7.5.
15. Your feet do sweel slightly as you spend longer on them. This is just common sense. The force of gravity causes blood to pool in your lower extremities.
16. ugh. gross. and f*ing true!
17........i'm bored now-if you wanna know the answer to any of the rest just holla
Monday, July 23, 2007
Who hasn't called yet?
Well....my mom, my sister, wither of my brothers, and half of my grandparents. Not to mention any of my aunts or uncles or any extended family like that. I'm not even thinkin that far.
It's nice to be so loved and supported by your family.
*sigh*
And they wonder why I wandered off and started a whole NEW family and had babies that always remember what july 23rd means.
It's nice to be so loved and supported by your family.
*sigh*
And they wonder why I wandered off and started a whole NEW family and had babies that always remember what july 23rd means.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
holy crap
in less than 8 hours I'll be 22. omg.omg. At 1:48 in the am on july 23 i was born and now it's 22 damn years later. it may still be quite young, but man have i been thru some stuff already. But it's cool. I've had a good run. It was difficult, but I'm still here. I'm looking forward to this next year, the last before my golden birthday. I have a feeling it's gonna be the best yet. It's a strong feeling and I am ready.
Lets go.
Lets go.
i am
at work. and my day has finally arrived. so what gormet feast shall i be dining on for my birthday......mmmmm hospital cafeteria food. what sweet nectar shall i choose to savor? why, pibb xtra but of course.
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*later*
my sweet coworkers brought me out of the iv room after midnight and had snacks and cake and a little banner and PRESENTS!!!
I'm pretty lucky to work with people who are so thoughtful, at least i think so. It made my day. AQnd half of them are gonna be at the parTAY on friday too. Good shit. I hafta say.
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*later*
my sweet coworkers brought me out of the iv room after midnight and had snacks and cake and a little banner and PRESENTS!!!
I'm pretty lucky to work with people who are so thoughtful, at least i think so. It made my day. AQnd half of them are gonna be at the parTAY on friday too. Good shit. I hafta say.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
Carlos Menstealia aka "Ned Holmes"
Dude, I fuckin love carlos mencia too-but thats not even his real name! I'M IN SHOCK from what I just saw. Seriously.
DUDE.....wtfever, man
See, man....I thought it was something important. Something of some consequence. You made it sound like we had some let some personal detail of considerable importance get into the wrong head. And I felt bad. I was upset and confused, like, what could it possibly be? How could this have happened? B/c we don't DO shit like that. Unlike some people, we are extremely loyal and protective of those around us. But now, and I hope this doesn't make me seem callous or anything, but NOW all I can do is laugh. B/c you wanna act like all the shit talking that has gone on was secret and covert the whole time?!?!??! lmao. Sorry lady, that ain't the way it works. When I'm talking shit, you can be damn sure that I know any and all that shit leaving my lips could be traced back to me. And that's ok. When I talk shit it ain't no secret. It's never "omg, leslie is a fat beast made out of bacon grease, but DON'T tell anyone I said that, ok?" Naw. Naw. See the personal shit we shared I have kept in the utmost confidence. But the shit talking true or not-when was that a secret? I never had a problem with those bithces knowing anything I said about them. Or know that I told you. You do realize that this whole court nonsense started because of you, right? B/c the heifer was talking crap, not even truly crap about you, but crap nevertheless, and we told you and you felt the need to say something. And she was sooooo upset that we told you the crap she was talking when she called that she withheld the kids and we had to go for like 3 weeks with out seeing our kids, Trin went three weeks w/o her sisters-that was all over of you. You know that, right? But we never blamed you. We never regretted telling you. That was never even the issue. In our misery and grief (cuz we get sick, physically ill, when we can't see them for a long time)we coulda been like, this is all Cara's fault, why does she ALWAYS gotta say something! But we didn't. We never looked it that way. But you guys are so....I dunno.... scared? Can't let them see our page, don't write that-what if they see it. Take that picture down, what if someone sees it and then tells them about it, JIMMINY CRICKET! I remember, I haven't forgotten, that Americo didn't even want to be friends b/c he thought it might make Leslie angry. O lawd.
Whatever. Keep your allegiance, out of fear, to those people whom you have to see from time to time(you know, the whole sharing of the cousins, yadayada) Spare yourself the "unnecessary drama" we didn't jump ship when we got slapped in the face by "
unnecessary drama" over you.....two.....people.(excellent use of restraint there ash, good job) but I guess this will spare us future "unnecessary drama" you guys do cause your share-just so you know.
And for anyone who wants to know-the shit wans't speculation when it was shared with me-it was told to me as FACT. just fyi.
Whatever. Keep your allegiance, out of fear, to those people whom you have to see from time to time(you know, the whole sharing of the cousins, yadayada) Spare yourself the "unnecessary drama" we didn't jump ship when we got slapped in the face by "
unnecessary drama" over you.....two.....people.(excellent use of restraint there ash, good job) but I guess this will spare us future "unnecessary drama" you guys do cause your share-just so you know.
And for anyone who wants to know-the shit wans't speculation when it was shared with me-it was told to me as FACT. just fyi.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Friday, July 13, 2007
speaking of birthdays
do you know that garbage ass cunt bitch didn't even have the twins call van on his birthday????? Even tho on hers we let her get them and it wasn't b/c f no damn court order-the court said we didn't have to, actually-it was out of the kindness and compassion in our muthafucking HEARTS cuz we had somewhere to be that day but we postponed it so this shit for brains thankles having (yes, people that is THIGHS for ANKLES) ASSFACED BITCH wouldn't even let the girls call their FATHER on his birthday. I hope she goes to hell. And soon.
And don't trip she can't see this so talk all the shit you want. The bitch deserves it. omg! i wanna run her over! but i'm afraid she might damage my car!
And don't trip she can't see this so talk all the shit you want. The bitch deserves it. omg! i wanna run her over! but i'm afraid she might damage my car!
Thursday, July 12, 2007
speaking of birthdays
do you know that garbage ass cunt bitch didn't even have the twins call van on his birthday????? Even tho on hers we let her get them and it wasn't b/c f no damn court order-the court said we didn't have to, actually-it was out of the kindness and compassion in our muthafucking HEARTS cuz we had somewhere to be that day but we postponed it so this shit for brains thankles having (yes, people that is THIGHS for ANKLES) ASSFACED BITCH wouldn't even let the girls call their FATHER on his birthday. I hope she goes to hell. And soon.
And don't trip she can't see this so talk all the shit you want. The bitch deserves it. omg! i wanna run her over! but i'm afraid she might damage my car!
And don't trip she can't see this so talk all the shit you want. The bitch deserves it. omg! i wanna run her over! but i'm afraid she might damage my car!
for my birthday
I want cards. Seriously. I want birthday cards. Actual physical birthday cards. Not ecards. I'm for real. Cards with genuine, heartfelt, handwritten sentiments mean soooooo friggin much to me. I don't know why. They just do. when I get a card with nothing but the senders name scrawled in it...I'm so dissapointed. I wanted a MESSAGE. And not the message American Greetings or Hallmark decided would be good enough to print on 2.5 million cards across the world. I want well fucking wishes from my homies. Seriously. That means more to me than if you stick a 20 in the card and don't write nothing.
Why?
Cuz it shows you give a damn. It shows that there is depth to our relationship. It shows I mean enough to you to jot five or six sentences down letting me know I'm special and important. And I'm conceited and egotistical. I know. We know. But I'm still insecure about my relationships with people because I have been played to the left so many times over the years and I wanna know, that now, I've surrounded myself with genuine articles. Cuz that's my motherfuckin mode. Thats what I'm on. So just so ya know-I want cards. (Money inside is a plus, lol ; ) But just a 99cent card with your FEELINGS inside will do me just fine. More than fine. Fucking beautiful.
Why?
Cuz it shows you give a damn. It shows that there is depth to our relationship. It shows I mean enough to you to jot five or six sentences down letting me know I'm special and important. And I'm conceited and egotistical. I know. We know. But I'm still insecure about my relationships with people because I have been played to the left so many times over the years and I wanna know, that now, I've surrounded myself with genuine articles. Cuz that's my motherfuckin mode. Thats what I'm on. So just so ya know-I want cards. (Money inside is a plus, lol ; ) But just a 99cent card with your FEELINGS inside will do me just fine. More than fine. Fucking beautiful.
Monday, July 9, 2007
At a loss
What do I do, what do I do......
When I first started this whole search for a home thing, I was so motivated-I didn't care where the damn house was-Indiana, Wisconsin, anywhere...and when our loan went thru I kinda slowed down like, whoa.....this thing could actually happen. I could actually be moving out south or even outta state. And I....I got cold feet. I slowed down. Stopped returning phone calls to our L.O. and all the realtors. I called myself being "too busy" but I got scared. I mean, neither me nor Van have very many friends or family. And we certainly don't spend alot of time with either. But....to be so far away...*sigh*.....I just don't know. I know we'll never be able to afford anything we can all fit into in the city, and we're quickly outgrowing where we're at now....but this is my home. I've never been anywhere else. Not even the southside of the city! I don't get out alot and I don't travel. It got to me. And now....well...I have my deposit that locked my interest rate back. Maybe I'll get my balls back sometime soon. Maybe not. We'll see.
DON'T ACT LIKE I NEVER TOLD YA
I KNOW I GOT TO BE RIGHT NOW, CUZ I CAN'T GET MUCH WRONGER
I NEVER WANTED THIS TO BE A COMPETITION.
IT WAS NEVER MY INTENTION TO "STEAL"THEM FROM YOU.
YOU MADE IT THIS WAY.
YOU MADE THIS A CONTEST, WITH THEM AS THE TROPHY.
YOU MADE THIS A RACE, WITH THEM AS THE FINISH LINE.
I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU COULD.
I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU COULD PUT THEM IN THAT POSITION.
IT'S FUCKED UP. CUZ THEY ARE FUCKED UP NOW. BEYOND REPAIR. THE SCARS FROM THIS BATTLE WITH STICK WITH THEM FOR A LIFETIME. IT'S TOO LATE TO FIX THEM. HOW COULD YOU?
WHY COULDN'T YOU BE RIGHT? WHY COULDN'T YOU STOP BEFORE IT WAS TOO LATE? OVER WHAT? HAIR? NAILS? PICTURES? A TITLE? LOVE? THEY HAVE THE CAPACITY TO LOVE ALL OF US. THEY DO. BUT YOU HAD TO MAKE THEM CHOOSE. IT HAD TO BE IF THEY CALLED SOMEONE ELSE BY A TERM OF AFFECTION AND ENDEARMENT THEN YOU WERE NO LONGER THEIR MOTHER. THAT THEY WOULD BE BETRAYING YOU. WHY MAKE THEM STRESS OVER THAT CHOICE? WHY MAKE IT FEEL LIKE IT'S A CHORE FOR THEM TO SEE THEIR FATHER? WHY MAKE IT SEEM LIKE THEY SHOULDN'T WANT TO? BE HAPPY TO?
WHY MAKE THEM VALUE ONE SIBLING OVER ANOTHER? THEY'RE ALL BLOOD. WE LIVE FOUR BLOCKS AWAY FROM ONE ANOTHER-IT WOULD BE NOTHING TO SHARE TIME FAIRLY. BUT WE'RE ALWAYS IMPOSING. ALWAYS ALWAYS ASKING FOR MORE THAN "OUR SHARE" WHY IS OUR FAMILY NOT ENTITLED TO THE SAME TIME????? WHAT JUSTIFICATION DO YOU MAKE FOR THAT? LEAVING THEM WITH SOMEONE ELSE FARTHER AWAY WHEN WE ARE RIGHT THE FUCK HERE? EVERYONE ELSE SAYS YOU'RE CRAZY. TOTALLY PSYCHO. BUT I KNOW-KIDS, YOUR KIDS, CAN MAKE YOU CRAZY. SO I HAVE TRIED MORE THAN ANYONE TO MAKE SOME KIND OF JUSTIFICATION FOR YOUR ACTIONS IN MY MIND. AND TO BE UPSET OVER WHEN YOU FEEL YOU'RE BEING SLIGHTED, I CAN UNDERSTAND. BUT TO TELL THEM THE THINGS YOU TELL THEM????? I CAN'T. I REALLY CAN'T. THEY'RE CONFUSED. THEY'RE ACCOMPLISHED LIARS AND FAKES, JUST LIKE YOU. ARE YOU HAPPY NOW? THAT WHAT YOU WANTED? FOR THEM TO HAVE TWO FACES TO WEAR AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT. IT COULDA BEEN RIGHT. THE OPPORTUNITY PRESENTED ITSELF. BUT YOU NEVER STOPPED USING THEM AS PAWNS. AS BARGAINING CHIPS. AND AS A CLAY TO IMPRESS YOUR HATRED UPON.
I NEED YOU TO HURRY UP NOW
CUZ I CAN'T WAIT MUCH LONGER
I KNOW I GOT TO BE RIGHT NOW
CUZ I CAN'T GET NO WRONGER
MAN I WAIT ALL LIFE NOW
THATS HOW LONG I BEEN ON YA
AND I CAN'T WAIT NO LONGER
NOWNOWNOW THAT DON'T KILL ME CAN MAKE ME STRONGER.
AND I HAVE GAINED SOOOOOOOO MUCH STRENGTH FROM YOU. THANK YOU, THANK YOU FOR MAKING THE MISTAKES I'VE LEARNED FROM. YOU SAY WE'RE THE SAME. BUT WE'RE NOT. AT ALL. THE ONLY THING WE HAVE IN COMMON IS "H" WORDS. YOU CALL ME A "HO" AND I CALL YOU "HEIFER". OTHER THAN THAT. I'M BETTER. AND I'M NOT GONNA STOP. IT'S TOO LATE FOR THAT.
SMARTER. PRETTIER. THINNER. TO SAY THE LEAST.
WORK IT HARDER MAKE IT BETTER
DO IT FASTER MAKE IT STRONGER
HARDER. BETTER. FASTER. STRONGER.
DON'T ACT LIKE I NEVER TOLD YA
I NEVER WANTED THIS TO BE A COMPETITION.
IT WAS NEVER MY INTENTION TO "STEAL"THEM FROM YOU.
YOU MADE IT THIS WAY.
YOU MADE THIS A CONTEST, WITH THEM AS THE TROPHY.
YOU MADE THIS A RACE, WITH THEM AS THE FINISH LINE.
I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU COULD.
I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU COULD PUT THEM IN THAT POSITION.
IT'S FUCKED UP. CUZ THEY ARE FUCKED UP NOW. BEYOND REPAIR. THE SCARS FROM THIS BATTLE WITH STICK WITH THEM FOR A LIFETIME. IT'S TOO LATE TO FIX THEM. HOW COULD YOU?
WHY COULDN'T YOU BE RIGHT? WHY COULDN'T YOU STOP BEFORE IT WAS TOO LATE? OVER WHAT? HAIR? NAILS? PICTURES? A TITLE? LOVE? THEY HAVE THE CAPACITY TO LOVE ALL OF US. THEY DO. BUT YOU HAD TO MAKE THEM CHOOSE. IT HAD TO BE IF THEY CALLED SOMEONE ELSE BY A TERM OF AFFECTION AND ENDEARMENT THEN YOU WERE NO LONGER THEIR MOTHER. THAT THEY WOULD BE BETRAYING YOU. WHY MAKE THEM STRESS OVER THAT CHOICE? WHY MAKE IT FEEL LIKE IT'S A CHORE FOR THEM TO SEE THEIR FATHER? WHY MAKE IT SEEM LIKE THEY SHOULDN'T WANT TO? BE HAPPY TO?
WHY MAKE THEM VALUE ONE SIBLING OVER ANOTHER? THEY'RE ALL BLOOD. WE LIVE FOUR BLOCKS AWAY FROM ONE ANOTHER-IT WOULD BE NOTHING TO SHARE TIME FAIRLY. BUT WE'RE ALWAYS IMPOSING. ALWAYS ALWAYS ASKING FOR MORE THAN "OUR SHARE" WHY IS OUR FAMILY NOT ENTITLED TO THE SAME TIME????? WHAT JUSTIFICATION DO YOU MAKE FOR THAT? LEAVING THEM WITH SOMEONE ELSE FARTHER AWAY WHEN WE ARE RIGHT THE FUCK HERE? EVERYONE ELSE SAYS YOU'RE CRAZY. TOTALLY PSYCHO. BUT I KNOW-KIDS, YOUR KIDS, CAN MAKE YOU CRAZY. SO I HAVE TRIED MORE THAN ANYONE TO MAKE SOME KIND OF JUSTIFICATION FOR YOUR ACTIONS IN MY MIND. AND TO BE UPSET OVER WHEN YOU FEEL YOU'RE BEING SLIGHTED, I CAN UNDERSTAND. BUT TO TELL THEM THE THINGS YOU TELL THEM????? I CAN'T. I REALLY CAN'T. THEY'RE CONFUSED. THEY'RE ACCOMPLISHED LIARS AND FAKES, JUST LIKE YOU. ARE YOU HAPPY NOW? THAT WHAT YOU WANTED? FOR THEM TO HAVE TWO FACES TO WEAR AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT. IT COULDA BEEN RIGHT. THE OPPORTUNITY PRESENTED ITSELF. BUT YOU NEVER STOPPED USING THEM AS PAWNS. AS BARGAINING CHIPS. AND AS A CLAY TO IMPRESS YOUR HATRED UPON.
I NEED YOU TO HURRY UP NOW
CUZ I CAN'T WAIT MUCH LONGER
I KNOW I GOT TO BE RIGHT NOW
CUZ I CAN'T GET NO WRONGER
MAN I WAIT ALL LIFE NOW
THATS HOW LONG I BEEN ON YA
AND I CAN'T WAIT NO LONGER
NOWNOWNOW THAT DON'T KILL ME CAN MAKE ME STRONGER.
AND I HAVE GAINED SOOOOOOOO MUCH STRENGTH FROM YOU. THANK YOU, THANK YOU FOR MAKING THE MISTAKES I'VE LEARNED FROM. YOU SAY WE'RE THE SAME. BUT WE'RE NOT. AT ALL. THE ONLY THING WE HAVE IN COMMON IS "H" WORDS. YOU CALL ME A "HO" AND I CALL YOU "HEIFER". OTHER THAN THAT. I'M BETTER. AND I'M NOT GONNA STOP. IT'S TOO LATE FOR THAT.
SMARTER. PRETTIER. THINNER. TO SAY THE LEAST.
WORK IT HARDER MAKE IT BETTER
DO IT FASTER MAKE IT STRONGER
HARDER. BETTER. FASTER. STRONGER.
DON'T ACT LIKE I NEVER TOLD YA
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