Talking Crap

Dude, seriously. If you're gonna talk crap-do it where I can see it/hear it/read it....otherwise-wtf is the point?

When I talk crap-I want you to know that I am and I want you to know it's about YOU. I don't try and hide it (and on the rare occasion that I do-I'm on some "other" type shit)I want you to know. Seriously. I want all my people-everyone in my life to know exactly how I feel about them. I don't lie. I don't front. If in fact it does leave my mouth-I mean it.

This is not just for people I hate and have no tolerance or respect for-it's everybody. And don't think just cuz I have/am/are/will talk shit about you-that I don't like you. Thats just not true. Everybody has not so desireable qualities. I put myself as the first bitch on that list. I have some big ASS flaws. Just like you. I know it. Do you? What do you think your flaws are? Really? Ok, now do u wanna know the truth-cuz I'll tell you. For real tho, I take the good with the bad. I know nobodys perfect. I accept that. And I embrace even the most flawed person with compassion, understanding and forgiveness. But I will STILL talk shit. Maybe it doesn't make sense to some. But it does me just fine. It's like mmmmmmmm. God. Sooo trying to think of some kind of fitting metaphor. Like when my babe poots. The shit STINKS. omg. sometimes i wanna hurl. And i talk MAD shit. like i am right now(and he's probly gonna be mad that i used this example-but sorry babe-i love you-stanky ass)But I accept the fact that his poots WILL stink. And that he WILL poot when I'm sitting right next to him. Those are acceptable flaws. There, of course, are unnacceptable flaws and those are the people I obviously cannot be friends with. My forgiving nature allows me to recognize when a flaw is remedied and move past that. But if you don't wanna change, fuck it then.

But anyway. I had a point. Kinda.

If you're gonna talk crap about me-at least let me be ABLE find out. Don't hide it. I wanna know. I wanna know what YOU think is wrong with me. I seriously doubt I'd change it but what the hell-I wanna know. Just cuz. And i understand you can't just walk up to my face and go "look, bitch-this is why i can't stand you...." thats confrontational. You can't be confrontational. When you come at people like that they lash out. They LOOK for shit to be wrong with you and things to attack you about. Thats counterproductive to my practice of acceptance. I wanna feel at ease. I want you to be easy too. I only talk crap in the faces of my friends that I KNOW can truly handle it without taking it as an attack and wanting to illogically strike back. That list is very short. But if you wanna know from my mouth what I think-buy my a bottle one night. I'll tell you. lol.
And tell ME. Stop hiding the shit.

what the fuck are you afraid of? lil ol me?